Friday, January 02, 2009

Happy New Year!

挥别了2008年,
用期许的心情迎来了2009年,
没有特别的希望要在2009年得到些什么,
只想所有我爱的人都平安快乐。

2009年,
我将会迎来我生命中一个很珍贵的人,
一个我会不惜一切要保护和珍爱的人,
虽然我还不知道是他或她,
但可以肯定的是,
我会付出所有去爱他/她。

祝愿我所爱的人,
新年快乐!!

Friday, October 17, 2008

沮喪

很想写下现在的心情,
但,
千言万语在心中,
却一句也写不出来。

我想,
我想当妈妈的路注定比别人难走,
一次又一次的打击,
的却让我很沮丧。

事业和爱情,
我游刃有余。
但我却操控不了自己的身体。
这次,
我可能有要让充满期待的人再次的失望。

我已经尽了力,
本不该让自己有遗憾,
就像医生说的,is fate.
可一想到会辜负所有人,
心里就很难过。

神啊,能不能救救我?

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

累了

最近好讨厌自己!

太多负面的情绪!!

可能是贺尔蒙飙升的太快吧,有点不知所措。

对工作累了,

对生活也累了,

对什么事都提不起劲了,可怕!

我还能有什么期待呢?

难道工作赚钱就是人生?

很累。。。

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

铜臭味

在钢骨森林混久了,

再香的名牌香水也掩盖不了那满身的铜臭味。

本以为辛苦打拼回来的position和income会让我有成就感,

很遗憾,并没有!

有人用时间来换金钱,

我不知道别人是如何看待,

可我不再想过那样的生活!

“时间就是金钱,有人利用时间赚取金钱,但金钱却不一定能买到时间”- 这证明时间比金钱重要。

和我妹的谈话点醒了我,

人生除了钱之外, 还有很多,如:家庭。

她满足于薪水不高,工作轻松,节奏不快的工作。

我嘴里说她没目标,没上进心,可心里却羡慕她的乐天知足。

她的确不像我这个so called 都市人,

为了追上节奏,

几乎失去自我!

算一算,自己赚进的钱的确不少,

但放进自己的口袋没多久,

就跑进了别人的口袋。(shopping, relax, massage, medi &pedicure, facial - Retailtherapy)

很庆幸,我还保留了一样珍贵的东西,

那就是对生活的期待。 

这是我永远都不会想失去的。

我会努力把‘铜臭味’抽离,

还自己一个清新的自己!!!

Monday, August 04, 2008

事情太多,时间太少

太久没写blog了,时间不够用。

忙到就连和baby抱抱的时间也没有。

最近心里头在酝酿着事业的蓝图,很多东西还在琢磨,原来自己的野心也不小。。。

心理上的累,远远超越身体上的累。身体疲惫,去个spa和massage或再来个medi & pedicure就什么累也赶跑。可是,心理的累却无时无刻的在吞啄着我。。。

真得很想看看自己的能力到哪里,是不是有那样的魄力和谋略为自己打下一片天。Baby是fully support, 什么都要趁年轻。

那好吧,我就下定要“做自己的主人”的‘宏愿’!

祝福我吧!

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Life aft Fuel price rise

Em, my life as usual. Nothing had changed.

I shop as usual. buy as usual. eat as usual and of coz spurge as usual. :D

Fuel price did affect me, i walk more instead of driving. Basically, my life really as usual. i mean, no big deal if u see me walking right?

Baby and i have new hobby - survey the food prices. weird? NO. of coz not.

This morning he 'report' to me he found a hawker ctr sell him a bowl of RM4 老鼠粉. (of coz taste mean everything) Both of us think we will ban the stall who sell us RM5 for the same food. Then v both keeps talking wat inside the bowl.

See, thts how v keep our 10++years relation - always have new topic to discuss with. It is fun. Trust me.

I can tell how much the fuel price affected ppl around us.

Bosses/Entrepreneur:

- Those who have stable biz b4 price rise, now earn less;

- Those who have moderate biz b4, now struggling;

- Those who struggling b4, now Closed Down!


Employees/Workers:

- Those who have stable job, now scare of losing their job;

- Those who able to earn a living b4, now might losing their job;

- Those who jobless b4, now will still unable to get job.

Adjust yourself to new challenge, all the best...

Friday, June 06, 2008

Fuel Price

Wat had happen lately in M'sia really made me down. Fuel price, price increase on consumer goods, etc....

Everyone around me is talking abt it. It does affect me, but not as serious as people who live, work and play in m'sia. Strong S'pore currency still able to help me get out of this crisis at this moment. But i dunno whether it will last me in long run.

Been reading Dr. Mah, Lim Kit Siang and Fong Po Kuan's blog. Following up closely this few days. As far as i know, they are the one who trying to save M'sians out of the crisis.

I understood we unable to escape as it is a globalize econ down turn and recession. Govt have to do something to protect it own peoples instead of burden them by causing the high inflation! I wonder, if there is no people working (all walk on the street to protest) will there be any income tax contribution? Will there be any GDP tht our Govt always talk abt? How much M'sia will lost in juz 1 day?

I'm not an economist, but i dare to say it is definately much more than wat the Govt is subsidying!!

I'm a peace lover. But, i aldy told my Boss, if there is a protest in JB, i'll be in! I got his support.

I wants to contribute my tiny efforts. M'sia forever a home to me, no matter how far i go...

"AKU ANAK MALAYSIA"!!!

Pak Lah, there are a lots of people like me who work in oversea, but our heart will always tie with M'sia. Pls do not ignore us. Thts not your one man show and it is not your playground too!!

Thursday, June 05, 2008

Baby's Mistress

You will find me crazy if i feel jealous on it - baby's X20!

I dun mean to complain abt him, juz hate to see his sick face over it. U know, the day we get the car, he spent more than 8hrs to wash, wipe and check every single parts on it body! He will never do this to me! (I mean, bath, scrub and massage me). Walau, need so good service meh! I cant imagine when the time he want to polish and wax it. *faint*

He keeps complaining to me says: wah their service really rough one, will use cheap cheap sponge, cheap liquid, cheap wax, cheap..... (cheap = poor quality). So, he run to The Store, grasp all he think is good quality sponge lah, liquid lah, wax lah and FEW cloths specially for car body one and 'warn' me say which is for window, body and the rims one... *fainted on the floor*

........

Now, i not only become his maid, i oso his mistress' maid too. coz i have to written down all the specific brand liquid and type of cloths to use if i got his 'mistress' dirty. ai... wat a poor life...

Oh ya, i have to plan my journey b4 start the car. Baby say try to avoid unnecessarily mileage wasted and blah blah blah abt the fuel price increase wor.

ok lah, he is the Master, i'm Maid. He call the shot...

I'm working out a worksheet, so next time can submit 2 days b4 if want to use his mistress... :)

Hahaha, i juz joking.... dun bother! if he dare to make me angry now, i got a way to ask it back. hahah - juz need to put my pretty hand on the window and leave some of my finger print on it will do... ahahhaha. Baby will damn mad!!!! Wahahaha.... evil.

P/s:
So baby, try not to make me angry k.... muack!
Really happy to see you cherish wat you have.
But, my hope is pls dun spurge on those 'wo eh bo eh'... then i'll be very appreciate. thk god.

Monday, June 02, 2008

第一天

今天,我第一次那么早起来 -上班。6.00am。

很怕Traffic Jam。But so far, i find it alright. Juz a lil jam at S'pore Custom. Other than tht was alright. 真的。Especially for a person who live in a superb transport system country for the past 7yrs.

My 1st day in JB was great and fantastic. But is still early to judge at this moment.

My neighbors are friendly. Our delivery man hit one of my neighbor's Passion Fruit Tree, but she more concern of anything happen to human instead of her tree. Wat a nice woman... I like her. I bought her a box of tasty donuts to show my deeply apology...

Ken - my bro, drive us here and there to familiarize the place.

Baby and i bought a RM3k Dunlopillo mattress... wow, the most expensive mattress we ever had. Damn comfy till dun wanna get our butt out of it. Find it worth as the mattress RP shd be around RM6750. Promotion now coz juz launch... heheh... Ask for FOC leather Divan + 2 pillow + 1 bolster frm Dunlopillo too. FYI, 1 pillow cost RM200... Yippe, get great deal! Wahahaha....

Overall, Baby and i find it is a new but good start....

Hope everything able to stay smooth...

Oh ya, you guys are welcome to stay with us if u come to JB...

I have 1 extra room... But make sure u call b4 come in order not disappoint u as too many frenz wanna book me, no, I mean the extra room. ha!

Thursday, May 29, 2008

Terrible week!

All things juz sucked!

Unable to move out as planned coz unable to declare on time at M'sia Customs. (Ya, juz wonder since when they have such good system, bite me!)

S'pore landlord find trouble aft 2 yrs of rental. (perhaps, feel pain on lossing such a great tenant- hey, FYI i pay rent b4 end mth, where to get such good tenant as i do, never owe him a single penny, wow really proud).

Quarel with someone over issues....too many to list. so, cut the crap...

God knows how depress i'm. But i'd solved it all, by myself. Think i feel proud? No, never. In fact, down.

Aft everything back to track, i wonder y juz me with me. Don't get it? i mean, ALONE.

There are no one able to help me, maybe they tried, but ended i solve it my own. Do u know how desperate i wish i could c Superman jump frm the sky and say yes to all my problems? If u know me, u would know how desperate i am now - Damn desperate!

As u know, there are no Superman exist! Ha, broke your dream? YA, if u dream on that, i'll juz say - FAT HOPE! No Superman, no angel! Juz will be u alone.

Troubles and problems doesn't go off itself, but will appear will no sign. How i wish i could have someone stronger, tougher or maybe juz better than me a lil appear and say 'I DO' to my probs.

Anyway, juz feel a lil depressed and need a break aft everything settle.

Is Maldives a good choice???

Or Hokkaido better?

Haiz, life full of choices, and this time, i created the troubles - myself...

Saturday, May 24, 2008

从容面对

Been busy lately.

Too many things happened in one go unable to describe my feeling.

Too many uncertainty....

I'm going to move to a place tht are totally strange to me - JB.

I'm gonna leave the place i stayed for the past 7yrs - S'pore.

I'm have to face those unnecessary 'family disruption' out of sudden.

any many many more ahead.....

I guess life full of challenges and this will be the start.

Have to prepare and be ready to face all this.

Dun even think to 'lean' on anyone or seeking for helps without trying, but of coz, friendship and family is important.

I'm not that kind of weakish and pamper gal. Never in the past and definately never in the future.

Juz wonder how can those people survive in a lonely planet? w/o family or friends... Yo, i'm the 1st one who unable to survive. Blame it to my 'party animal' charateristic. :) (dun laugh, mankind needs society to survive, society form by mankind-is an unchanged rule)

Do u know how much i save when i open my mouth to ask ard for better offer in house mover service? How many useful info i get when i open my mouth to ask for somethings new in my world? How many concern i receive when i open my mouth to share my grieve or grievance? Let me tell u, tht are countless!

I cherish family relationship and friendship, and of coz, my Love one.

When ppl face depressions or problems, they tents to feel bad or unhappy. But i chose a way to overcome it - accept it, face it, solve it.

I'm getting tougher, stronger and happier now. Problems, unhappiness and depressions is anywhere, if u able to prepare yourself and be confident to yourself, i believe u definately able to overcome anythings in your life.

P/s: To my dearest frenz - Cat, this post is specially for u. Hope u able to overcome all problems, so u wont feel so sad, u will have our supports k... May Cupid with u... :p

With Loves,
Michelle

女人心

‘朋友’昨天睡不着,在看"Ghost Whisper 2nd Season".

身旁的男人睡得很香甜。

大概02.33am时,男人突然睡眼惺忪的问:“还不要睡啊你”??

“朋友”很惊讶,因为她和男人之间从来不会用'华语'交谈。十几年来都是用‘粤语’。

‘朋友’听后很讶异,整晚都辗转难眠。心里头突然涌现无数的问号很不好受。

男人时常说‘朋友’是敏感的女人。试问天下有哪个‘人’对自己身边的人反常的举动会视而不见啊?何况是自己爱的人,见鬼啦!

‘朋友’很难释怀,不过不打算追根究底。

只是心里有一些独白想要找寻出口,‘朋友’想对男人说:

‘十多年的爱情和感情(或许对你来说那已经是种习惯和需要)是我这辈子的人生里有着不能割舍的意义。
当我睡不着,只要看着你熟睡的脸庞就会很满足;
当我受尽委屈,只要扑进你温暖的双臂里我可以忘掉一切;
当我快乐时,第一个念头就是和你分享;
我的成就是你的功劳, 因为你是我强力的后盾;
没有你的呵护和支持,我不会是今天的我;
当然,你给的爱才是最大的原动力,
没有你的爱,我什么也不是。
我可以接受有一天你不再爱我的可能,
不过,
我不能接受被欺骗或瞒骗!
无论是善意的谎言还是迫不得已,
都不能!
我是个打从骨子里倔强的女人,
无论我多么的爱或爱着你,
我都不会原谅你。
所以,‘坦白从宽,抗拒从严’,
从实招来才是上策。
最后,
请你看在十多年的情份上,
永远别让我最后一个知道,ok?"

看着你熟睡的脸庞,心里很欣慰因为你还睡在我身旁,
忍不住掐了你一把,
对不起哦,因为我要确定我是不是在做梦。:)

还有,
下次作春梦可别被我捉包,
我可是会掐死你的。。。哈哈。。。
爱你哦!

Friday, May 23, 2008

Passed

Wahahahaha..... Me and Baby PASSED our BTT (finally! *phew*)!!!

So, we ONLY failed 3 times k....

Will proceed for our conversion soon.

S$50 for a whole life license (except u not awarded 12 demerit points of coz). Damn Worth it!!!!!

BTT

Today 3.15pm is my BTT (Basic Theory Test). Damn shaken. (Been failed for 3 times and this is the bloody 4th test lio, shame on me!)

My Boss damn bad, tease me says: i oso can pass, u so 'knowledgeble' oso failed 3 times ah! (thks so much for your 'encouragement', my dearest boss!!) FYI, he got his BTT 10 or 15yrs ago. (u and i know systems changed time to time, only he still feel so proud. Cant blame him coz i always tease him, so serve me!)

Will not feel bad this time as me and baby not gonna buy S'pore Reg. car anymore. So if able to pass mean a bonus added, if not juz wait for next time... Anyway, as i know there are someone pass their BTT on 7th or 8th attempt... hehehe. small case for 4th lah, take it easy......

So, wish me luck today!!!

Elantra X20



Baby and i juz decided to choose Black colour for our car. Before hand still uanble to decide which colour to go for.

Singapore and Malaysia have different colour range. Singapore have Black, Blue, Sapphire Silver, Silver and Dark Purple. But M'sia only have 3 at this moment. But the interior is cream colour leather. Due to the showroom in JB do not have the display of the Black col + cream col leather seat so Baby still hesitate on tht.

But juz now v went out for dinner and pass by a carpark, we saw 2 Avante(Elantra in S'pore). One is dark purple and another is Black. We was so excited and quickly look up and down of the car, other ppl if dunno what are our intention might think tht we are planning to steal...hehehe

S'pore black col come with a grey col seat, Baby was trying to match the seat to the cream col in his mind, after 'deep' consideration (of coz i oso done my part to blah blah blah all the good side of black col beside him lah) finally he decided to go for Black. Coz our Elantra come with the Tinted window so it might not really clear to c the cream col seat from outside....

Hehe, I get my dream col for my car finally.....