很好奇自己在别人眼中到底是个怎样的人。
我自问不是个逆来顺受的‘弱女子’，这种烂鸟个性的确让我很吃亏。
如果你见识过我据理力争的样子，就算我是对的，你也不会同情我。
或许刚出社会时曾经被欺负到只能偷偷躲在被子里自己偷哭的阴影，
让我对自己暗暗的发（毒）誓不会再让自己被欺负。
严重的阴影让我反弹地更高吧，现在的我的确只能用强悍来形容。
就算要掉泪，也不要让人知道。
或许，自我保护过了头，已经让人忘了我也是个女人，也需要呵护。
每个人有烦恼或问题，就会来找我。
可有好东西时，却没我的份。
我以为我把自己保护的很好，再也不会受欺负了，
可是现在我才发现原来我是很好欺负的。
你有试过明明受委屈的是你，却被要求看开点。
明明心里很难受，却又被要求不计较。
你有试过明明现在的你需要‘特别’关心，可却没人关心你。。。
太多太多了。。。
我有问自己，是不是自己太糟糕，所以才被‘遗弃’
我也问自己，为什么要委屈自己？为什么要违背和背弃自己？
虽然别人从不当你是宝，你也不用着把自己当草。
别人从不拿你当自己人看待，你也不用再一厢情愿把头栽。
如果注定不能当家人，那就别勉强。
爸妈，兄弟是一辈子的，再不好再不堪也不能弃也没选择。
可老婆或老公是可以再选的（虽然不容易），
何苦因为和老公家人不和而要老公做夹心人。
既然我能自立，也有能力养小孩，
何不干脆快刀斩乱麻，
脱离那让人烦恼又复杂所谓的家庭关系吧。
或许现在该好好的想想，
只有我和孩子的生活比较实际。
至少不用再去在意别人的不公平的对待。
开始或许会很难过和不舍，
但至少我可以爱自己和我的小孩多一些。
Showing posts with label family. Show all posts
Showing posts with label family. Show all posts
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
Saturday, May 24, 2008
从容面对
Been busy lately.
Too many things happened in one go unable to describe my feeling.
Too many uncertainty....
I'm going to move to a place tht are totally strange to me - JB.
I'm gonna leave the place i stayed for the past 7yrs - S'pore.
I'm have to face those unnecessary 'family disruption' out of sudden.
any many many more ahead.....
I guess life full of challenges and this will be the start.
Have to prepare and be ready to face all this.
Dun even think to 'lean' on anyone or seeking for helps without trying, but of coz, friendship and family is important.
I'm not that kind of weakish and pamper gal. Never in the past and definately never in the future.
Juz wonder how can those people survive in a lonely planet? w/o family or friends... Yo, i'm the 1st one who unable to survive. Blame it to my 'party animal' charateristic. :) (dun laugh, mankind needs society to survive, society form by mankind-is an unchanged rule)
Do u know how much i save when i open my mouth to ask ard for better offer in house mover service? How many useful info i get when i open my mouth to ask for somethings new in my world? How many concern i receive when i open my mouth to share my grieve or grievance? Let me tell u, tht are countless!
I cherish family relationship and friendship, and of coz, my Love one.
When ppl face depressions or problems, they tents to feel bad or unhappy. But i chose a way to overcome it - accept it, face it, solve it.
I'm getting tougher, stronger and happier now. Problems, unhappiness and depressions is anywhere, if u able to prepare yourself and be confident to yourself, i believe u definately able to overcome anythings in your life.
P/s: To my dearest frenz - Cat, this post is specially for u. Hope u able to overcome all problems, so u wont feel so sad, u will have our supports k... May Cupid with u... :p
With Loves,
Michelle
Too many things happened in one go unable to describe my feeling.
Too many uncertainty....
I'm going to move to a place tht are totally strange to me - JB.
I'm gonna leave the place i stayed for the past 7yrs - S'pore.
I'm have to face those unnecessary 'family disruption' out of sudden.
any many many more ahead.....
I guess life full of challenges and this will be the start.
Have to prepare and be ready to face all this.
Dun even think to 'lean' on anyone or seeking for helps without trying, but of coz, friendship and family is important.
I'm not that kind of weakish and pamper gal. Never in the past and definately never in the future.
Juz wonder how can those people survive in a lonely planet? w/o family or friends... Yo, i'm the 1st one who unable to survive. Blame it to my 'party animal' charateristic. :) (dun laugh, mankind needs society to survive, society form by mankind-is an unchanged rule)
Do u know how much i save when i open my mouth to ask ard for better offer in house mover service? How many useful info i get when i open my mouth to ask for somethings new in my world? How many concern i receive when i open my mouth to share my grieve or grievance? Let me tell u, tht are countless!
I cherish family relationship and friendship, and of coz, my Love one.
When ppl face depressions or problems, they tents to feel bad or unhappy. But i chose a way to overcome it - accept it, face it, solve it.
I'm getting tougher, stronger and happier now. Problems, unhappiness and depressions is anywhere, if u able to prepare yourself and be confident to yourself, i believe u definately able to overcome anythings in your life.
P/s: To my dearest frenz - Cat, this post is specially for u. Hope u able to overcome all problems, so u wont feel so sad, u will have our supports k... May Cupid with u... :p
With Loves,
Michelle
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Weirdie
Happily back to office yesterday after a long weekend. Happily login to my msn to check who is online-ing. Suddenly a window pop-up once i signed in.
Axxxe sent 5/18/2008 7:18pm
"WATCH YOUR MOUTH!!!!!!!!!!!! I xxx xxxx write one, look for me. Twister!!!!!!!!!!!!
Obviously, it is a msg that 'complain' me. I start thinking/figuring out of what is the msg trying to mean/hint. Yes, I definately know the person who sent that msg and if 'in-law' mean family or relative, the one who sent the msg is definately my 'Immediate Family'! (Of coz they are my family, but i dunno how they think about me).
Trying to reply/ask the person through, too bad is offline. So, with my impatience character, and yes, anger, i sms to his hp:
1st Sms:
"Wat the hell u trying to hint or mean on ur msn msg sent to me on 18/05/2008, 7.18pm!? Frm wat i know, i dont even talk to either u or Axxxe since our last met! Pls enlighten me where the hell i offended u will be very much appreciated."
NO REPLY
2nd Sms:
Do you know the meaning of 'TWISTER' b4 u send the msn msg? It is a very serious accuse to me. Pls make things clear!! I dun even talk or meet u for the past few weeks! R u nuts or gone crazy!?
NO REPLY TOO!
I expected atleast a reply frm them to tell me wat is happening. But, none.
At last, i get one msg frm a phone number start with 8xxx xxx0:
Axxxe sent 5/18/2008 7:18pm
"WATCH YOUR MOUTH!!!!!!!!!!!! I xxx xxxx write one, look for me. Twister!!!!!!!!!!!!
Obviously, it is a msg that 'complain' me. I start thinking/figuring out of what is the msg trying to mean/hint. Yes, I definately know the person who sent that msg and if 'in-law' mean family or relative, the one who sent the msg is definately my 'Immediate Family'! (Of coz they are my family, but i dunno how they think about me).
Trying to reply/ask the person through, too bad is offline. So, with my impatience character, and yes, anger, i sms to his hp:
1st Sms:
"Wat the hell u trying to hint or mean on ur msn msg sent to me on 18/05/2008, 7.18pm!? Frm wat i know, i dont even talk to either u or Axxxe since our last met! Pls enlighten me where the hell i offended u will be very much appreciated."
NO REPLY
2nd Sms:
Do you know the meaning of 'TWISTER' b4 u send the msn msg? It is a very serious accuse to me. Pls make things clear!! I dun even talk or meet u for the past few weeks! R u nuts or gone crazy!?
NO REPLY TOO!
I expected atleast a reply frm them to tell me wat is happening. But, none.
At last, i get one msg frm a phone number start with 8xxx xxx0:
'Finally, ur wish come true!! Njoy.
What is this???? What is my wish or wishes? Are they 'immortals' who know what i want? How can be so 'jump-tone'?? Send a msg to scold me, then 'wish' me ?????
I guess it would be the most funniest/incredible things happen in my life.
Anyway, Baby said dun bother and f*** care them. So, I dont bother.
Cracked my brain to think what i had done, but i'm really sorry that i really unable to recall a single one. If u happen to c this post, pls tell me. Thank you very much.
Lastly, Cheers for Weirdie...
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Conflicts
没有对与错，
只有合或不合。
人与人之间的相处，讲求缘份。
就算是亲兄弟，
也不见得就会无话不谈。
很遗憾的是， baby是个重亲情的人，
可是家里却不是他找寻亲情的依归。
是什么让原本和谐的家庭变了样？
是什么让兄弟不愿见到对方？
是什么让baby如此的不再留恋他对家的思念？
我不知道，
可我肯定baby是真的生气了，
因为他不再想回老家了。
其实，conflicts是人为因素。
如果这次的纠纷是因为某人心胸狭隘而引起的，
我想baby也没必要为了别人的狭隘心胸而不快乐。
Baby, you have my supports.
Sometimes give in doesn't make things better,
it might make things worst as other might think you're guilty.
so, lead your own life and be more stronger.
只有合或不合。
人与人之间的相处，讲求缘份。
就算是亲兄弟，
也不见得就会无话不谈。
很遗憾的是， baby是个重亲情的人，
可是家里却不是他找寻亲情的依归。
是什么让原本和谐的家庭变了样？
是什么让兄弟不愿见到对方？
是什么让baby如此的不再留恋他对家的思念？
我不知道，
可我肯定baby是真的生气了，
因为他不再想回老家了。
其实，conflicts是人为因素。
如果这次的纠纷是因为某人心胸狭隘而引起的，
我想baby也没必要为了别人的狭隘心胸而不快乐。
Baby, you have my supports.
Sometimes give in doesn't make things better,
it might make things worst as other might think you're guilty.
so, lead your own life and be more stronger.
Saturday, April 26, 2008
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